i never update anymore.

life has been good, crazy, and awesome.

i start back to college(!) next week. it's exciting and intimidating. i feel focused and motivated.

the next two weeks are going to be the longest two weeks of my life.

photography.

so, i've been taking a lot of pictures lately... at least taking pictures a lot more than usual. i've had 4 photoshoots in the past week. two were for my friend's costume shop, the other two i was actually hired/paid for. today's photos shoot was amazing and after seeing the final product, i can honestly say i've never been more happy with the images. a few of my favorites...







costume photos to come either tomorrow or some other time this week.... and maybe a proper update. i really don't know what i'm doing with this blog.

staying busy.

i haven't felt much like writing anything lately. most of my day-to-day life is just shared with ken in daily emails, keeping him posted on almost every detail of life here while he's on the road.

life has been fairly busy/hectic/dramatic. i've been taking a lot more pictures and i'm happy about that.

i don't really feel like writing...

/i love iron and wine.

to do list for the rest of the week:

** post stuff on ebay
** set up photo shoots
** paint middle room/hallway
** get out of town, maybe
** not lose my mind

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every parent wants to believe that their child will not do the things you hear about in the news or read about in the papers. you think you know your child, and then shit happens and you wonder if you were just turning a blind eye or that you're child really ISN'T the kind of person that can make smart decisions. peer pressure and the need for acceptance is a bitch.

this isn't going to get any easier.

i was having a decent week until today.

fear is probably the best word used to describe my current emotion but there's a lot more than that going on.

parenting is not getting any easier.