Monday, April 30, 2012

times, they are a changin'

I have a job interview in 45 minutes. It's not a dream job, but at least it's a job. I'm nervous about the interview. I haven't had an interview for a job in quite sometime. I'm confident in my skills and knowledge but I'm nervous about the commitment to something other than school. I want the job. I need the job, so I hope the interview goes well.

Ryan and I talked the other day. Things went well. Things are well. I'm excited and scared, but things are different. I'm also presently looking for employment in the Atlanta. I'm taking this slowly though. I'm in no condition to move quite yet.

Speaking of moving, my best friend Crystal is moving back to South Carolina from Texas. She's going to be living with me for a little while and helping me with the bills and stuff. It's going to be wonderful having her here.

I was thinking last week when I realized my world was going to open up to new opportunities once I was done with school, and I just told myself that I would keep my mind open and just see what happens...Everything happens for a reason and things happen when it's time.  And all this has happened, all in a matter of a few days. It's too much to comprehend. I feel positive about it all though.

Saturday, April 28, 2012

So this happened today...

I'm officially a college graduate. The number of emotions that went through me this morning was overwhelming. I don't know how I managed to not cry. I did, though, manage to awkwardly walk across the stage to receive my diploma.

Pictured here is all the art student graduates and our professors, sans our art history professor.

Sunday, April 22, 2012

Old Man Orchid vs Art History Cont....

Goya  - 3rd of May
 Rembrant - Birth of Christ (Adoration of the Shepherds?)

Monet - Lily

Rembrandt - Supper at Emmaus

Goya - Saturn Devouring His Son

I'm having too much fun with this

Saturday, April 21, 2012

Old Man Orchid Time travels.

During the process of making my steel anthropomorphic flower "Old Man Orchid" I gained a close relationship with him and he developed the best personality of any inanimate object I have ever been in contact with. Sure I sound like a crazy person, but when I work so closely to a piece of art it really becomes its own entity.

I was super-imposing my sketch of Old Man Orchid into an image of the plot of land he will be installed and had this great idea to have him time travel in art history. I suck at photoshop and the image I have of him is not great, but he still makes for some hilarious situations in art history.

Van Gogh - Wheat Fields With Crows
Manet - Olympia
OMO is ogling, he's a creepy old man sometimes
Renoir - Luncheon of the Boating Party
These guys like to party and I like my Old Man Orchid to party too.

(more to come when I get the inspiration)

Friday, April 20, 2012

First Public Sculpture Installation

I'm pretty excited about my first installation of public sculpture. I never want school to end. 

rites of passage

I've been looking around my house a lot for inspiration these days. I'm beginning to realize that once I'm done with school I will have to find other resources for materials and alternative ways for assembling. I really really want a MIG welder. If I get a good job anytime soon my first paycheck will go to one of those bad boys.

So the other day I was looking at these three pieces of scrap wood from my back door. The other week I had cut these out to install a doggie door for Buffy. I then rummaged through my pile of junk and found other significant and items of interest and just started sketching and assembling. As a soon to be art school graduate, I wanted to prove to myself that I can actually draw. Drawing and painting are my two weaknesses. It has never really clicked, so i needed this last little project to prove to myself that I CAN draw and it can actually look good.

This piece, for me, is rather symbolic for the events coming up in the next few days. The tree has morphed into a candle that has been put out, there is a cocoon to the right of it ready for new life, and a door above waiting to be opened. The theme is extremely cliche and the symbolic nature of the subject matter cliche as well, but I'm okay with it. I appreciate simplicity when it can be there. I'm not a pretentious artist, and I'm more than happy to admit when things get a little campy. But this piece compared to the more expressive and very conceptual previous works is a breath of fresh air that I needed after this whirlwind of crazy. 

Monday, April 16, 2012


Today marks the first day of my last week of undergrad. I'm overwhelmed with emotions right now. I don't want this to be over. Ever.

I've been taking mental notes on the past 15 years of my life and really reflected on it a lot lately. I don't recall if there was ever a time that I thought I would ACTUALLY finish college. I knew I wanted to, but raising my daughter was more important than getting a degree, and for 12 years that was what I did.

These last 4 months have been a blur. I'm panicking now. I've been applying for jobs for the past 3 months and haven't heard back from one employer yet. It's stressful. My bank account is empty and I don't know what I'm going to do. I have to trust that things will work out for the best and things will happen when it's time.

This new journey in life is scary, uncomfortable, and all the above. I love being a student. I'm ready for graduate school, but can't get there yet. One year isn't a long time to wait for that. I will be a better person and more prepared, THEN I can spend every day of my life in school because I will be teaching what I love.

I feel so lucky. I wouldn't have made it this far in life without a wonderful supportive family. My friends mean the world to me and have really been a huge inspiration with my life and personal growth. I truely love every person who has been a part of my life one way or another.

Thank you, all of you. 

Sunday, April 15, 2012

this just makes me giggle.

I'm putting together my proposal for the public sculpture I've been working on. This is a rough idea of how he will look in the location he's being installed. 

Thursday, April 12, 2012

steel flowers cont

Public flower sculpture install is just around the corner (April 25 to be exact) and I've been doing my best to stay ahead just in case there are in bumps in the road. Yesterday I painted the first layer of two of my bigger flowers and made around 15 small flowers (that will also need painting). I really wish I had the money to buy a MIG welder. I would buy it and use it all. the. time.

Sunday, April 8, 2012


I'm so fortunate to have wonderful professors that help me with preparing with exhibitions. I love the look of wooden frames and it feels awesome to be able to make these on my own. So much love goes into my work that it only makes sense that I do the framing myself as well.

Spotless mind

Sometimes I wish I could wipe out memories of the beautiful relationship yet painful breakup. I'm tired of being down all the time. I just want to know what it's like to feel that kind of happiness again.